deja vu

i seems to be using this word a lot lately... could be the Deja Vu movie i watched last year.. or was is two yeasr ago.. well whatever... i'm feeling like this again.. going throught this not so nice feeling almost every 4 months once.. sigh... why does this happen? will it happen again? same thing over and over again? will it get worst the next time it happen? sigh... who knows.. who cares? i do.. and i don't like the feeling...